2/6/10

First step to a new house!


The house project has officially begun!!
Nathanael, 6 friends, and Roman , spent the day today digging and leveling 3 truckloads full of gravel/dirt. The property is on the side of a hill so it took quite a bit of work to get it ready for the foundation to be poured. Next comes the foundation. A group working with IDT will be arriving to build the actual house on Feb. 15th.

We are SO excited to see the finished project!


It was miserable weather for most of the day today and as you can see by Romans bombero raincoat they worked in the rain. We didn't get another rain like the flood rain...just passing showers.
I was home, in the trailer with the 3 kids (Roman didn't go to help dad until 2pm) wishing I could be of more help. The older two would have been fine to have there all day but it would have been difficult to get much done with Silas around. He would have been fine for a couple hours but not for 7. Although it appears that half the neighborhood kids came to help anyhow :)



This week the bridge going over a drainage ditch at the orphanage was rebuilt. It's still waiting on some iron railing and a little more cement (?) but it should stand up to any storm we get now. My husband knows how to build things strong! Our coffee tables have withstood every kind of abuse for years now.
We had a "small world" moment with the gentleman on the right who came down to volunteer for a couple weeks. His daughter and son in law live in the little town next to us in SK and we actually know his son in law (and the son-in-laws family).




Aili and Roman have been on a "helping other people with yard work" kick this past week. Whatever keeps the troups busy and out of trouble. ;) It's been nice to see them take the iniative to help others. Now I wish they would have the same enthusiams for doing work at their own house.



Silas takes his job of playing very seriously.

Los Ninos (photos)


My boy Alejandro.


Louis and his sister wait and hope for a miracle, a visit from family.


giggle girl!



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2/5/10

Los Ninos



At the end of every month, at 4 O'clock in the afternoon there is a special service led by the children who live here.
All 7 "casa's" are represented as a few children from each house shares something about their life, asks for prayer or shares a bible verse. Any new children are introduced by their house parents and they are prayed for. I have been to quite a few of these services but for some reason this time it really effected me. I don't know if it was the dawning realization that we may not be here for another end of month childrens service or just the fact that these kids have left an impression on me. Probably both. We have known many of these kids for 4 years now. Some for a decade (since I first came to this orphanage).
We , in just a small way, have been a part of each others lives.



As I listened to the 10 year old girl share how she came to the childrens home at the age of three when her mother died of stomach cancer....
As I listened to a brother and sister ask for a miracle (a visit from their father)...

As I listened to a 13 year old boy with HIV thank God for another year of life....
My heart filled with emotion and my mind became clear.
This is why we are here.
The children.



Little Mayra tried to share but a severe attack of the giggles prevented her from sharing anything but laughter.

I almost lost my control of the tears that threatened to flow when three little girls nervously, with big smiles on their faces and ribbons attached to their hands stood at the front and sang for us. They sang a song of praise to their heavenly father. The one who will never abandon them.
Brenda who has cerebral palsy walked with awkward jerky steps as she pushed her walker up to sing as part of the trio.
She stood unaided with her hands in the air doing the actions, holding her ribbons, and singing her heart out.
She was in a wheel chair when we first met her 4 and half years ago.

Each one of these kids has a story.
So many of them have experienced in their short lives more than we ever will in ours.
They come because they are orphanaed, neglected, abused, or abandoned. Some have a parent that loves them dearly but is unable to care for them. Some have a parent that has chosen drugs or alchohol over their children. Some parents seek out help because of poverty.
Their lives have been difficult.


There is also joy. They are loved, they are living in families, they are educated, fed, clothed and they are taught that the God who created them also loves them dearly. They have value. They are not lost children made to face the world alone.
They have a friend who will never fail them.

I sat beside Alejandro (the boy we sponser) during the service. He has definately worked his way into my heart. He is a 6 year old boy full of energy , big smiles, curiousity and mischief. Much like my own son. The one difference is he comes from 6 years of neglect and abuse.

He has not been overly affectionate which is natural given his upbringing. The only time he has recipricated affection was when I brought him a birthday present on the day that was invented to be his birthday (no one knows when he was born or how old he really is). On that day he planted both his hands on my face and kissed my cheeks. That was a great thankyou.
Other than that I have to chase him down for a tickle or a playful hug. He definatley loves to play.

As the service went on ,and he saw Silas snuggled up on the other side of me, he inched closer and closer. I had my arm draped across the pew behind him and gave his shoulder a squeeze once in a while, aware of not making him feel uncomfortable. After a while I put my arm down and my hands on my lap.
Next thing I knew his face was on my shoulder, then a few minutes later his arm was resting on my arm, finally as the service ended he was holding my hand with his fingers entwined with mine.

The kids. They are why we are here.
If you want to sponsor one of the children who live at the childrens home visit the website.
Let me know if you sponsor a child from the Baja orphanage and I'll sneak in some extra photos of your child ;)


doctor doctor



Aili came home from helping sort donated supplies at the clinic with a bag full of interesting things to play with.



Isn't that a catheture tube?? I wasn't about to tell them what that was!



All kinds of dramatic procedures being done in the Burlando clinic.



Job well done Dr. Roman, Dr. Aili and Dr. Silas.

Roman proudly wore his mask around the mission for most of a day. I guess you can never be too careful.
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2/4/10

sin eater

I recently found out about an ancient custom that originated in Europe and even made its way to America and was practiced for many years on the mountains of Apalachia.

When a person died, in order to be relieved of the sins they had accumlulated throughout their life time they would hire someone to be their sin eater. That person would ceremonially eat and drink food and beverage passed to them over the dead body. Thereby taking upon themselves the sin of the other person. The person who did the sinning would be considered innocent as they passed into eternity and the "sineater" would bear the burden. The obvious problem being the sin still existed it was just passed to another soul. Eventually someone would have to pay for it..eventually the sineater dies too.



I was reading Leviticus and came accross a somewhat similar custom. This custom however was commanded by God to symbolize sacrifice and atonement. Aaron, Moses' brother was commanded to pick two goats. One would be given to the Lord as an offering. The other would be the "scapegoat" and would be sent into the desert to atone for the sins the "wickedness and rebellion fo the Isrealites- all their sins".
"The goat will carry on itself all their sins to a solitary place" I would venture to suggest that this was foreshadowing and symbolic of the messiah. This is where the term "scapegoat" originated.

We use the term "scapegoat" today to refer to a person who is made to take the blame, the fall, the consequences and essentially the sin of another onto themself. If the consequences or shame of our own sin is too great we pass it onto another person and let them carry the burden and blame. It sounds strange but how often do we pass blame in our own marraiges, in our families, in our churches or in our workplaces. Thought provoking...


Why do we feel , as believers, that we need to hide our sin or find a scapegoat when we fail? Hasn't Christ provided all we need?

I would define sin as any mindset, thought , attitude or action that stubbornly insists on, and claims my right to myself. Anything that pushes God off of his throne and attempts to put myself there. We tend to think of sin as specific actions. Sin can be subtle attitudes and priorities as well. Actions can be sinful but it is also state of being. We all inherit a nature of sin.

No struggling, New Years resolutions or striving will enable you to stop doing some things and the natural penalty of sin is that we gradually grow used to it, justify it, and eventually don't know that it is sin. It's a slow fade. Nothing except the power of the Holy Spirit can alter the inherent consequence of sin. It is not only God who punishes for sin but sin itself gives back full pay. It lures, entraps and ensnares. I think the most dangerous kind of sin is the kind that we don't recognize and have become desensitized too.

There are many ways people try to absolve themself of sin without having to really face it, repent of it and lay it down at the feet of Jesus. We still find scapegoats. Someone who we can manipulate, blame , attach our guilt to ....and send into the desert alone. Anything to keep us from having to face it ourselves.
Unless a sin is dealt with, forgiven and atoned for it will linger on.

The effects and natural consequences affect generation after generation.
The sins of the father will reach in one way or another his grandchildren, his great grandchildren and so on. Unless God and his healing are allowed to intervene. I chose the word "allowed" because we are given the choice to stand in the way of that freedom and remain in our chains. After all ,we have our own ways to deal with sin and a guilty conscience.

We can heap shame upon our own shoulders. We can feel guilty. We can linger in depression and sadness.....but nothing changes. We can punish ourselves, lash our own backs and try to do "good" in an attempt to outweight the "bad"...but its still there. Nothing changes. The chains are still firmly attached. We can justify and find excuses for our behavior but the effects of sin are still rippling through the lives of those we love.

In a letter written by Paul to Titus, recorded in the New Testement of the Bible it says.


"At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived, and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing and rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life."

Titus 3:5

"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Jesus Christ." Romans 3:23

Pride is a very dangerous pitfall because in that state we are unaware of our own need of grace. When a person trully sees himself in light of a Holy God, it is not the hiddeous sins of the flesh that shock him but the nature of pride in his own heart against Jesus Christ.

True repentance and forgiveness requires going backward. Acknowledging what it is we need forgiveness from. It is feeling the weight of the chains, the realization of our desperate need for grace and forgiveness...from God (and from those we have hurt). Only then can we release it to the only perfect atoning sacrifice ever provided.

****On a bit of a side note I think sometimes believers ,who have been freed and saved ,make a mockery of that grace by harbouring , nurturing or refusing to acknowledge sin. We have our 'get to heaven free card' and think we can fill our lives with as much garbage as we want. One of the problems with that attitude is that hidden sin will stand in the way of everything God desires to do in our life. It stands directly between us and God. It will destroy the peace, joy, contentment and freedom that are available to believers. Like an untreated malignancy bitterness, unforgiveness, guilt, shame, sin of the flesh and pride will destroy our both our bodies and our spirits . ****

We don't need to live like that.

"But God demonstrated his love for us in this; while we were still sinners, Christ died for us"

Romans 5:8

It is because of Jesus blood and God's grace that we are saved out of the snares that entangle.

We are made just, even when we we are not just.

We are made holy, when we are so far from perfection.

We are made to be without blemish

we are made pure

we are made innocent.....

even though we are none of those things.

We are covered by His Holiness, His pureness, His righeousness.

"He is the Lord our righteousness."

" Through him everyone who believes is justified from everything you could not be justified from by the law of Moses" Acts 13:39

God's plan to redeem humanity was two fold. The law and grace. Law is the mirror and grace is the scrub brush. The law is something written on our hearts ( better known as the "10 commandments"). We are not made clean by the law only aware of our own dirtiness.

It is by HIS grace and sacrifice that we are washed clean.

NOT because we are good at covering our tracks, or a professional at denial, or good at punishing ourselves. God sees through those things. There are no closed closets with God but we can choose to keep them dirty. The choice is ours.

Will we need to hire a sin eater when we die? Cross our fingers and hope for the best?..... Or will we die knowing with assurance we can go before Holy God covered and cleansed. Redeemed and rescued by a loving God.

After the flood pictures.

These pictures were taken the week after our big rain. There is still clean up and repair work being done around the mission.


 


Lots of puddles and mud to play in. That first sunny weekend ,after being cooped up in the trailer, there was no keeping the kids clean. Roman was wet and muddy for a whole day (I wasn't going to let him in the trailer until after he showered) but happy as a little boy can be.
 


 


 
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2/2/10

Bursting at the seams!

Cluttered organization has become a new normal for me. I'm ok with that most of the time. The space we are living in is about the size of an average Canadian bedroom. So to cram all of us with all of our stuff in...requires some creativity and some deep calming breaths.



 


Everyonce in a while I have to gut each of the shelves and cuboards, clean it, and then put everything back on it. There are no empty horizontal spaces here. There are no empty spaces on the walls. There are towels hanging next to our table and jackets hanging above the beds.
 


Our clothes are crammed into little cuboards designed for a weekend of camping not a winter full or varying weather and growth spurts. I gave up on organization behind the doors. Stuff it in...close the door...quick.
 


I miss dresser drawers.
 
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Aili and Roman each have a shelf for their clothes and the middle is for both of their school books. We have it down to a science though. In the morning each of their school book bins gets set on the sofa (which must be changed from a bed into it's more useful daytime form). All the bedding is shoved onto one of the bunks where they stay with the toy boxes. Before bed the books are shoved back in the cupboard and the couch once again becomes Aili's bed.

The two shelves next to the door hold..well..just about everything. I should have a "caution falling dishes" sign stuck on the front of my kitchen cuboard. There are so many dishes, vitamins, and containers stuffed into my one overhead cuboard that quite often there is an avalanche waiting for me.

It's easy to get frustrated or discontent with our current home but all I have to do is wander a few minutes away to find people without the things that I have and often take for granted. Hot running water, a floor, cupboards to put clothes, clothes to fill my cupboards, clean dry beds, a fridge, places to sit, a propane stove, a table...a roof. It's amazing how that puts things into a whole different perspective. It's all about function right now....things like convenience and decor will have to wait. As far as function and practicality goes we have everything we need and more.

For once in my life not being a neat freak works to my benefit. We have to be pretty meticulous about putting things where they go otherwise there will be no table to eat on or place to sleep but when everything is put in it's place and it still looks like an overcrowded dorm room....I can still relax.

It's funny how some personality traits that often are a disadvantage at home make life here easier. I'm naturally a very flexible "go with the flow" kind of person. Sometimes at home that can be seen as flaky or impulsive. Here that flexible, make-do personality allows me to survive and even thrive. I guess God knew what he was doing when he pieced me together. I've seen the same thing in my husband as well, probably to a greater extent since he is much more involved in the ministry here. God is using his unique giftings and peronality traits to the fullest right now. It's really an amazing thing to witness.