10 years ago, I became a mother.
It has been whole decade since I had the privaledge of carrying and holding my son.
This past year a song was written in honor of a mother who chose to carry her child, even knowing that the baby would not survive.
When I carried my son, I had never heard of such a thing.
There were no blogs with pretty pictures describing what to expect.
I was barely past childhood myself and I was faced with grief no one expects, and no one would want.
....but it was part of a bigger plan.
He had a purpose that in my sadness I could not see.
"I will carry you,
while your heart beats here.
Long beyond the empty cradle
through the coming years."
I vowed to carry my son as long as his heart was beating.
What I didn't realize was...
I will carry him as long as my own heart beats.
...and I wouldn't have it any other way.
"Such a short time, such a long road"
Happy 10th Birthday in Heaven my sweet boy.